Day 2: Write something that someone told you about yourself that you never forgot.
I find it really unsettling that when I read this, I instantly thought of a dozen negative and horrible things that people have said about me over the years. It is a sad but true fact that the negative things people say often outshine the positive ones, and it would be all too easy for me to add to that with this post, but I just don’t want to. I could talk about how people made fun of my size, or when people said cruel things, but that’s not something that I want to remember. Those are the things that everyone wants to forget. Instead, I’m going to talk about something that makes me smile when I think of it. Something that means far more to me and shows who I am far more than any of the negative things people could say about me. I was told once that I have a beautiful soul, and that my daydreamer’s mind will take me to places that other’s aren’t even capable of dreaming about. I don’t know if I can even get across to you how meaningful this was to me. It made every inch of my body and mind happy. People can tell you every day that you look beautiful. They can compliment your hair or your clothes. They can point out how nice your body is. But there will always be that little voice inside you saying that they’re wrong or they’re lying. But when someone tells you that your soul is beautiful, or that who you are as a person is beautiful, it’s just one of those compliments that your brain doesn’t even know how to dispute. It’s a compliment that settles deep into your heart and stays there, waiting to remind you of it when someone hurts you or makes you feel less than what you are.
I am a daydreamer through and through. There’s no other way to describe me really. There isn’t a moment that goes by when I’m not daydreaming about things in the back of my mind. I used to get in trouble at school as a child for it. They didn’t want that quality inside me to survive. Teachers, parents, principals, everyone; they did their best to pull my head back under the clouds and to get me to focus on my work and only my work. And at the time, I almost wanted it to work. People made daydreaming and imagination seem like such a bad thing, as if it would make me less intelligent or it would make me a bad student, when really it does the opposite. I’m able to see now that daydreams, imagination, and creativity have shaped me into the person I am now. And I only realized that when someone said those words to me: my daydreamer’s mind will take me to places that other’s aren’t even capable of dreaming about. My mind makes me different, unique, and my mind makes me, me.
“You get ideas from daydreaming. You get ideas from being bored. You get ideas all the time. The only difference between writers and other people is we notice when we’re doing it.” –Neil Gaiman
The moral of this post, I suppose, is that even though people have said and will continue to say bad things about you and things that hurt you, you don’t have to make those words be the ones that define you. You can just as easily hold onto something someone says about you that makes you happy. Something that means the world to you. I’ve let my mind be the thing that defines me, as a person, as an aspiring writer, as a human being. Not my thighs or my face or anything else that will change completely when I’m old and grey. Your appearance only lasts a short while, but your soul, well, some say that lives on forever.
I hope you’re doing well, where ever you are in the world, and I wish you all the best.