30 Day Writing Challenge | Day 8

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Day 8: Share something you struggle with.

As any other human, there is an abundance of things that I struggle with. As you’re reading this, I am either about to go to, currently at,or have gotten home from a job interview. A huge job interview. One of those interviews that could make your life 1000 times different if you succeed, or knock you back 1000 feet if you fail. This brings me right to something that I struggle with; Fear. I’m absolutely terrified of this interview, and I don’t really know how to make this fear go away. I’ve tried to take the pressure off, telling myself that it’s really not that big of a deal, and that I’ll be just fine if it doesn’t work out, but I don’t know if I truly believe that. If I land this job, it means I’ll be making a significant amount of money compared to what I’m making currently, and that would push me really far in the right direction. If I were able to make more money, I’d be able to save so much more, and that’s something I really need to do if I want to travel or move to another country someday. I know that money isn’t what’s important in life, but it really does make following the dreams I have a whole lot easier.

I’ve spent the past week studying up on the company, searching the internet for interview tips, hunting down the right “interview appropriate” outfit, everything, all in hopes to land this job and move a step closer to  following my dreams. This job isn’t just about the money for me, its also about my career, or lack thereof. I know that a lot of 21 year old’s aren’t worried about a career or gaining experience in their field of work, but I really am. I have an end goal, and that end goal is to be happy. One of the things that I think will make me happy is to move to a new place, one that I love, one that feels more like home than my current “home” ever has, and in order to do that, I’m going to need a job there, and in order to get a job there I’m going to need a lot of experience and as many connections as I can possibly get. And for that, I’m willing to work hard. But fear seems to always creep it’s way into my mind.

I mentioned this subject to a friend the other day, about how fear is one of the big things stopping me from following my dreams and goals. Fear of doing things alone, fear of not having a safety net. I have no idea how to get over fear, and fear is what causes my anxiety. It is a horrible cycle. And it is something that I struggle with constantly.

Do any of you struggle with similar things? Do you think fear or anxiety hold you back? How do you cope with it? I’d love to hear about it in the comments below. Along with any motivation or positive vibes you can give me about this job interview, chances are that I am sitting at home, internally freaking out about whether or not they will call me and tell me I got the job. Fingers crossed I don’t bomb the whole interview!

I hope you’re doing well, where ever you are in the world, and I wish you all the best.

-Lexie Xx

53 thoughts on “30 Day Writing Challenge | Day 8

  1. Good luck with the interview! 🙂 Deep breaths, have little sips of water to calm yourself. What career are you aiming for?

    I can sympathise with your worries and anxieties – I finished my undergrad degree this month and now I’m job-hunting for the first time in my life. It is nerve-wracking, that’s for sure, but I’m also viewing it as a challenge and trying to enjoy the process!

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    1. Thanks so much, deep breaths were incredibly important for me with all of this. I was making myself so incredibly anxious over it all!
      If I had the option, my career would simply revolve around writing, unfortunately I don’t have that option just yet, so currently I’m trying to work my way up the little corporate ladder in an office, to save money to make my life into what I’ve always wanted it to be. 🙂
      I wish you all the luck in your job hunt! I managed to do okay in my interview I suppose, because I woke up to a phone call saying I got the job! 🙂 If I can do it, you can too!

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  2. Lexie! I wish you all the luck in the world with your interview. No matter what happens, I’m certain your drive and your fixed stare on your dreams will bring you forward.

    I know too well what fear can do to you. For four years, I let fear keep me from following my dreams and starting my journey. What really changed is my relationship with fear. Without giving fear any power, what would drive us to change ourselves, to better our lives? By giving too much power to our fear, we’re paralyzed. Take it for what it is and let it continue to drive you forward.

    Remember: slow progress is still progress. One day at a time.

    Greatness from small beginnings.
    -Charlie

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    1. Thanks so much Charlie! I’m so happy that you were able to overcome that fear, it keeps me inspired that I’ll be able to do the same.
      Remembering that “slow is still progress” is something that I struggle with immensely, but I am doing my best to remember it often. Thanks again! 🙂
      P.s.- even though it has taken me a while to reply (my apologies for that) I did see this before my interview, and it genuinely helped! I took your words to heart and I suppose I was able to put them into action, because I got the call this morning saying I got the job! So just know, that your kind and inspiring words helped me in that!

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  3. Good luck Lexie. When you’re stretching yourself there may always be fear but you just go ahead & do it anyway. You can acknowledge your fear like it’s trying to protect you but then tell it “it’s ok, I’m gonna do this anyway”. It helps to ask the universe, God, Angels for help & then let it go & do your best. Someone once told me fear is an acronym for “false evidence appearing real”. Can’t wait to hear how it went. What kind of job is it?

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  4. Hey lexie,
    Good luck on your interview. Being nervous is natural and I can relate to the fear of not being able to achieve something you longed for. I believe that our fears will help us focus on our vision more and will make us work twice as hard than you normally would. If you didn’t make it then don’t feel bad or down about it but be happy you worked really hard and there is a better opportunity waiting for you out there.
    I sincerely hope you get to fulfill your dreams. All the best.

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    1. Thank you so very much! I am just trying to keep my eyes on the prize as they say and keep all of my dreams and goals in mind through all my endeavors. I hope that those dreams and goals will be able to push through any fear that gets in the way.

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      1. You are welcome. How was your interview? Have you heard from the company? Like you said, keeping an eye on the prize will help you be focused, but don’t forget to have fun also. Having and keeping a healthy balance will make everything easy. Once again good luck Lexie.

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  5. Good luck! Fear is the root cause of everyone’s issues personally and globally, but at the end of the day what should happen, will happen. Rest in that and trust the universe, God, which ever resonates easier with you and know you are always where you are supposed to be at this time. If this interview works out, great! If not, it wasn’t meant to be and something else with come along. Try to relax in that, Sending you light and love.

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    1. Thanks so much! I hope I will forever be able to push through my fears and keep my goals in dreams in mind. I was lucky, and this interview went well. Well enough that I got the call saying I got the job! Thank you so much for the encouragement!

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  6. of course I don’t know you but the fact that you are so young and are truly driven to work hard for what you want, tells me that you are a very capable young woman and should have more confidence in yourself… I’m sure you will do fine at the interview because you are prepared and have done your homework. If by some chance you do not get the job, don’t take that as an indication that you are not good enough… I’m sure a lot a people applied and it all really does depend on the mood of the interviewer, just like our writing here on this blog, some people will really like your style while others will not, doesn’t mean you are not a good writer, just different styles appeal to different people, so keep up the good work and have some confidence in yourself, if you don’t no one else will and confidence in yourself makes you shine. I really like your writing, and look forward to reading more of your blog! let us all know how the interview went, people do care… Michelle

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  7. Best wishes, Lexie! Many of us have been in a similar situation and the fear can be crippling. The fact that you are still going forward with the interview in spite of your fear shows that you are courageous! Thank you for your candor!

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  8. My best wishes to you and your job hunt!! If I can offer a suggestion, I just finished reading “The War of Art” by Steven Pressfield. In this book he describes how the greater the fear, the great the desire and need to accomplish what it is you are afraid of. Keep working toward your goal!!! Good luck!

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  9. I know it´s hard to hear it, but don´t be afraid of failure no matter how frustranting it can be. If you get the job
    you should be proud cause you did your best. But if you don´t be proud of yourself cause
    you´ve tryed your best!
    A long time ago I became very sick due to my anxiety and I´ve learned one of the tough lessons of my life:
    I just can´t control all the things that happens in the universe. Since then I have to remember it to myself
    every single day to keep anxiety under control. It´s hard to balance it. Fears? Yeah, I do have so many fears. And I always sing the same music when I´m struggling. It says “Courage is when you are afraid but you keep on moving anyway”. I love this song. It´s called Courage is by The Strange Familiar.
    So congrats on doing the interview! Fighting your fears to do it shows how brave you are.
    I´m cheering on you! I believe there´s a right time for everything that happens in our lives and I really hope your time has come to get this job. =*

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    1. Thank you so much for this! It was exactly what I needed! I truly appreciate it! I did manage to get the job, and it was partially due to the support and kindness that so many of you (and you in particular) have shown me!! 🙂

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      1. Way to go girl! Congrats Lexie!!! So good to start my day with such great news! May it be the beginning of a successful career.

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  10. Congrats to you on getting the job! I take it you have to move in order to go to the job? I struggle with the same thing: Fear. Mostly fear of changes and what makes matters worse is when you know you need a change in life but struggle to make it. As for jobs, I have applied for over 300 jobs and only got 4 interviews and was able to get one of those jobs to get experience for my career. I fear I won’t have the family I have always wanted. I fear I won’t be successful even though I try and work harder than ever. In order to beat fear is not give into it even if you fail once. The only thing we fear is fear itself. You are a remarkable person and I enjoy every post of yours. I am a 26 year old man still plowing through life in hopes one day I find someone and something that has made everything worth the wait and journey.

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    1. Thanks so much. Technically yes, I’ll have to move. But not right away, and not very far. I’ll need to move to Kansas to be closer to work eventually, and I live in Missouri, so I’ll be moving to a new state, but in reality it’s only half an hour or so from where I currently live. Lol.
      It’s nice to see that there is another person struggling with many of the same fears that I have, it further reinforces the idea that you’re not alone in your struggles.
      Thank you, I really appreciate this!

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      1. When you know someone else out there has the same thoughts and fears, it kind of comforts you in a way. And no, you are never alone. Remember that 🙂

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      2. Of course! Us people who have the same thoughts and fears need to stick together! I would love to pick your brain sometime. Your blog posts are always inspiring, thought provoking, and fun. Lol. You just seem like a great conversationalist.

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      3. Feel free to chat with me anytime! I love getting to know new people, especially ones that are seemingly so similar to me! 🙂 I really appreciate that! I do put quite a lot of thought and effort into these little posts that I write and its really nice to hear that someone appreciates them. 🙂

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  11. Hi Lexie,
    I totally get what you said here. I have been through this phase as a 21 year old who never thought she could make her own money. I couldn’t imagine how I could possibly know everything that I was supposed to study during my graduation. Just hang in there, prepare your best and the right job will choose you. Keep appearing for interviews and begin liking the process. Make friends with fellow interviewees appearing for the interview, who will definitely have the same fears as you. Your end goal you say, is happiness. Let me tell you, you can be happy anytime – with or without the job/money – as long as you have your family. Read my struggle with a similar fear here : http://wordcoiner.com/of-hope-at-home/

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  12. Congrats on getting that job, Lexie! Fear has also been crippling for me over the years, but I have learned something that really helps. It is called Mindfulness. Basically you concentrate on one small thing allowing all else around you to dissolve away. You continue to concentrate on that one thing until your anxiety leaves. There is a lot more to Mindfulness training, but that is one small part of it that you can begin to focus on. If you want more information, just do a search for it on Google… there are tons of sites and articles on its effectiveness. Good luck with the new job! You’ve Got This!

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    1. I’ve had this recommended to me before but didn’t put much thought into it, I may have to look into it! Thanks so much, I’m equal parts excited and terrified about this new chapter in life, but I’m ready to get started on it! 🙂

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      1. I think if you give mindfulness a chance, you will be amazed at how it dissolves anxiety 🙂 I wish you much success on this new chapter of your life… dream it, be it! You can do this 🙂

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