20 Summer Goals | Watercolor Wonders

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Okay, yes, summer has come and gone, and while I did fulfill many of those goals that I shared with all of you in my earlier post, I just didn’t seem to capture them all and share them with you. So for one last time this year, I wanted to share one more of my Summer Goals with you.

This one may have been my favorite. I’ve always loved art. Growing up all I wanted to do was color, paint, and create. Maybe that’s why I’ve fallen so in love with writing. It’s my way of creating something and sharing it with people. But I fell into that trap of thinking that “I’m just not good at art doing art”. I think a lot of people think of creating things or being artistic as some sort of competition. Like you have to be amazing at it to do it, and if you aren’t, then you shouldn’t even try to create things. Or thinking that because someone else is better than you are, that you shouldn’t even try to create things. But through this little water color journey of mine, I’ve realized (although, this is something I’ve understood for a while) that it doesn’t take skill or a special talent to create. All it takes is you. And your imagination. Being creative is a part of life that everyone should partake in. Its not a competition, its not just for the wildly talented. Creativity is a right that no one can take away. Creativity is about passion, and happiness. Creativity is about letting your mind and your thoughts do what they want to do, rather than always thinking it through to every last little detail. Creativity is an essential part of life.

Creativity is intelligence having fun.Albert Einstein 

When I first started in with watercolor painting, I tried to really learn it. Learn the techniques, the skills, the whole process. But I quickly learned that I didn’t fully enjoy it that way. I created many beautiful paintings, from lighthouses, to beaches, to flower arrangements, but through out those projects, it all felt like work. I had to pay attention to what I was doing, I had to focus, and I had to try incredibly hard. It was easy to see that it wasn’t my thing.

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Eventually, I put away the YouTube tutorials, sat down outside in my backyard, and just painted. I didn’t realize how much I could love just sitting down with my paint brushes just splattering paint around on paper. No thoughts about what I would be painting, or what techniques needed to be used to achieve it. I don’t enjoy making those things, as much as I enjoy these little pages full of messy patches of color.

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Now, after making dozens of these colorful, blob filled creations, I had to figure out if anything could be done with them. As much as I enjoy them, and enjoy the process of making them, they aren’t exactly “frame worthy”. But as I was walking through the card aisle of Target, I realized that I had a use for all of them, one that would add an extra personal touch to everything that I do. If this were a cartoon, the little light bulb would have lit up on top of my head. Cards. I could make cards out of these silly little paintings and add an extra personal touch to all the little things that I like to do.

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I love to give cards for all sorts of occasions. When someone is sick, when someone’s birthday rolls around, etc,. But one thing I always do, is send Thank You cards. So that’s what I made for this post. This little thank you card is for all of you reading this, and for all my internet friends that follow this blog and send me emails checking on how I’m doing and just generally chatting with me. It has been so fun starting this blog, just the enjoyment that I’ve gotten out of writing alone would have made it the best thing I’ve done all year, but the friendships I’ve made, and the support I’ve gotten, have all made this into something that I don’t want to give up. So thank you, you lovely people you.

I hope all of you can find some way to be creative, even if you’re not great at it, as long as you’re doing it, that’s all that matters. There is no wrong way to be creative.

I hope you’re doing well, where ever you are in the world, and I wish you all the best.

-Lexie Xx

Somehow I fell off the blogging bandwagon. I have many things to blame for my lapse in posts; full-time course load, full-time work load, quarter-life crisis, etc,. The list could go on and on, as it could for everyone I suppose. But I wanted to get back into things. This is almost therapeutic for me. Writing down my thoughts, sharing them with all of you. Its nice. So I’m going to do my best to regain that spark, if you don’t mind of course, and what better to start with than another Summer Goals post? Although this is the final Summer Goals post of the year, I can assure you, that I have some things in-store for this blog that I am truly excited about, so I hope you come along with me on the continuation of my little blogging journey. ❤

30 Day Writing Challenge | Day 8

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Day 8: Share something you struggle with.

As any other human, there is an abundance of things that I struggle with. As you’re reading this, I am either about to go to, currently at,or have gotten home from a job interview. A huge job interview. One of those interviews that could make your life 1000 times different if you succeed, or knock you back 1000 feet if you fail. This brings me right to something that I struggle with; Fear. I’m absolutely terrified of this interview, and I don’t really know how to make this fear go away. I’ve tried to take the pressure off, telling myself that it’s really not that big of a deal, and that I’ll be just fine if it doesn’t work out, but I don’t know if I truly believe that. If I land this job, it means I’ll be making a significant amount of money compared to what I’m making currently, and that would push me really far in the right direction. If I were able to make more money, I’d be able to save so much more, and that’s something I really need to do if I want to travel or move to another country someday. I know that money isn’t what’s important in life, but it really does make following the dreams I have a whole lot easier.

I’ve spent the past week studying up on the company, searching the internet for interview tips, hunting down the right “interview appropriate” outfit, everything, all in hopes to land this job and move a step closer to  following my dreams. This job isn’t just about the money for me, its also about my career, or lack thereof. I know that a lot of 21 year old’s aren’t worried about a career or gaining experience in their field of work, but I really am. I have an end goal, and that end goal is to be happy. One of the things that I think will make me happy is to move to a new place, one that I love, one that feels more like home than my current “home” ever has, and in order to do that, I’m going to need a job there, and in order to get a job there I’m going to need a lot of experience and as many connections as I can possibly get. And for that, I’m willing to work hard. But fear seems to always creep it’s way into my mind.

I mentioned this subject to a friend the other day, about how fear is one of the big things stopping me from following my dreams and goals. Fear of doing things alone, fear of not having a safety net. I have no idea how to get over fear, and fear is what causes my anxiety. It is a horrible cycle. And it is something that I struggle with constantly.

Do any of you struggle with similar things? Do you think fear or anxiety hold you back? How do you cope with it? I’d love to hear about it in the comments below. Along with any motivation or positive vibes you can give me about this job interview, chances are that I am sitting at home, internally freaking out about whether or not they will call me and tell me I got the job. Fingers crossed I don’t bomb the whole interview!

I hope you’re doing well, where ever you are in the world, and I wish you all the best.

-Lexie Xx